Everyday, I'm getting more and more anxious in this internship program. I'm worried about not getting the required six published articles. It seems like I am the only one who's not progressing in this internship and to be honest, I feel sad. What's wrong? Maybe I am not that good enough. Maybe my taste is different than what they're looking for. Maybe my style is a problematic.
Last sem, I got a lot of critiques like not having my own style in writing, not having the tone that should be reflected on my writings, which always boils up to not being good enough. But what I don't get is that why every single time I try to be better, it always ends up to me feeling a lot worse. I don't take it personally when someone critiques my writing but sometimes, I just feel like I am being judged.
It's not like my articles were criticize by my supervisor but I'm just really worried since it's just days away before this summer class ends and I still need to publish 4 articles. Every night, I keep on telling myself that I can do it but sometimes, there just these times (like now) that I can't help but think of not making it. I know that our adviser told us to be positive on all things but.... I'm on the verge of losing hope.
P.S. Today has been a very emotional day so pardon my negative thoughts included in this blog entry. Also, this day is a very memorable one. The 7th of May last year was the last time I saw my dearest friend before she passed away after suffering in the hospital for five days. :(
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